Little Z and I were picking out a Christmas tree and I looked up. Who is that guy? He’s different. You turned and we stared for what seemed like minutes. My stomach fluttered which was unexpected because I don’t try to think of you much.

It has been 1 year 5 months and 10 days. 1 year 5 months and 10 days since we said goodbye. 1 year 5 months and 10 days since you catalyzed a huge change in my life. Before you, I depended on men for approval. I sought painful situations. During our relationship I didn’t know how to accept your love which I regret, but now see as a lesson I needed.

I’m so happy you’re happy. I’m so happy I’m happy. We can’t be happy together because of how much I hurt you and your family, but I do hold a special place in my heart for you.

Thank you for everything.